Good evening my fellow kossacks, I am filling in for Darrell, aka Darrell J Gahm, HHG, Jay Jay the Love Ray, Bakin4mymomma, etc. As tonight's guest host, please get your self your favorite cold or hot beverage and share you happy story with the class. My story is a tale of finding that special love, Dkos style... more below the flip
A little background for those who do not know me. I usally hang out with the doofi in C&J, like Armando's Army, I am one of the minions of Bill in Portland Maine. My first incarnation on Daily Kos was Jdog269 (a.k.a. Kitchen Bitch, as I have 3 recipies in the cookbook) , I am the asshole responsible for the postings of the mental iPod songs. I was married to a very sweet person, with whom I had a wonderful daughter. My daughter is super smart, already a liberal and another smart ass at the tender age of 7. Though my wife was a very sweet person, she and I forgot the most important rule, while taking care of everyone else, we forgot to take care of our relationship. Yesterday, May 4th, 2006, my marriage of 12 1/2 years was officially over (Our marriage was over long before yesterday). Divorce is never a happy story. My happy story comes from finding love when I started to rise from the ashes of the end of it.
I showed up on DK before the 2004 elections, and gravited to C&J for the relief that the humor of BiPM gave during those dark days.C&J has a special chat room where more than a few of the regulars get together in the evening and talk about everything, even politics sometimes. It was there that I met the greatest collection of individuals I could ever hope for. This was a group that was about love and support. They have your back, no matter what is going on and it is genuine. (A special shout out to Cosmic Debris, San Diego Dem and IrishPrincessPatti)
It is there that I met a very special person. Long before I even knew anything about this person, we would exchange barbs inside the special place here where you can go and get mental rest (if you do not visit C&J, shame one you). One day she showed up in our chat room, she was going through a divorce and was looking for the love and support that I talk about. She and I struck up a friendship. When I turned 40 last year, a small group of east coast C&J'ers threw me a birthday party and I met this person in the flesh for the first time.
She showed me kindness that I had not seen in years. She knew I was one small step away from downing a bottle of pills and she opened my mouth and blew in; and said "I am breathing life into you". She did and so much more. She gave me hope and and that feeling of being loved and appreciated for nothing more than being me. Our friendship led to romance and more. I type this from the great state of New Hampshire where she lives and now so do I (note to Sox fans, mine will always be White! You can take the boy out of Chicago, but never take Chicago out of the boy. Sorry Markos, but the Cubs suck.). I can say, except for the birth of my daughter, I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. We are two peas in a pod, buddies and so much more. She volunteered for Yearly Kos, and will be working the reception desk. I will be right there with her and you will know me by the smile on my face. To you all she may be Shermanesq, to me she is all I ever prayed and asked for. I am one happy doggie and my tail is always wagging. I love you Sharon.
So if any of you out there are feeling unloved, unappreciated or just down, remember this story. Whether you are straight, gay, bi, or tri there is someone out there for you. One that will make you soul sing and your heart dance. When you find that person, never let them go and never, ever forget to tell them 'Thank You'. If they ask why, just tell them you are thanking them for being in your life. Some times it is ok to belive in unicorns.
So I dedicate this mental iPod song to Dkos' own Shermanesq, my special buddy and way, way much more.
Ladies and Gentlemen I give you.."Back on My Feet Again" by the Babys
I was so lonely until I met you
Told myself I'd get by without love
Drownin' my sorrows
Avoiding tomorrows
Kind of felt that I just had enough
You light up my face with your jokes and your smiles
And the way that you came here tonight
Don't know what you got
But I'm sure glad I found you
Could be wrong but it sure feels right
And here I am
I'm back on my feet again
Here I am
I'm back on my feet again
Surprised at myself
for the way that I feel
So happy that you're
here with me
Some women I've known
They've left me with nothing
But I guess that was just meant to be
And here I am
I'm back on my feet again
Here I am
I'm back on my feet again
I was down for the count
I was down
I was beat
I was cryin'
I was cornered and hurt
I was hidin' my face
Sittin' there cryin'
I was so lonely until I met you
Told myself I'd get by without love
Drownin' my sorrows
Avoiding tomorrows
Kind of felt that I just had enough
And here I am
I'm back on my feet again
Here I am
I'm back on my feet again.
Yes here I am
I'm back on my feet again
Here I am
I'm back on my feet again